My name is Ashley. You can also call me Ashley Nikole
I am in my late 30’s and have been a girl all my life (even if I was born looking like a boy). I never was like the other boys and didn’t like to play the same games the little boys did. I started dressing in girls clothes when I was about 8 years old because I loved the way I looked and felt. I felt whole, like it was what I was made for. I never knew at the time that there was a thing called transgender/transsexual and when I did learn about it, well, it was all the incorrect information. It never crossed my mind that I might be one.
I am beginning to embrace my inner woman, doing the things that I love and being the me I’ve always sensed I was. I am beginning to throw off the world and what they think I should be and how I should act and it feels great. My family has been fully supportive of me. I have some amazing wonderful children who I love so dearly (even if I didn’t get to birth them…I know, it’s painful, but I’d totally jump at the chance to feel life growing inside of me) and I look forward to an adventurous life with them.
I became a follower of Jesus, and had my sin forgiven when I was 17, and everything I do, every decision I make, every direction I walk, gets run through the filter of Jesus. That alone made this path a very hard one to accept because I’d always been taught all my life that those people were wrong. After a nervous breakdown because of my condition, I went to God’s word to find the truth that what I sense inside is sin and, well, I’m still looking for it. I love encouraging people, lifting them up and cheering them on to keep going in what is good and God honoring. I love serving people and I love pointing others to Christ, testifying to what He has done in my life. I love business and am such an entrepreneur its not funny (oh to be on the cover of Inc magazine as a transwoman of a very successful business). I also love shopping and am learning that I can not buy everything in the store (but I would if I could…hehe).
If you want to learn more about me, my history, and my thoughts and feelings, please read my posts. Gather insight, learn more about the me on the inside instead of only looking at the me on the outside (1 Samuel 16:7).
God bless
Ashley
Shedding Shadows 
April 9, 2014 at 12:18 am
Following Jesus is the only road in life
April 10, 2014 at 9:43 am
Amen to that Mike. Thanks for reading and God bless.
April 16, 2014 at 4:40 pm
I can deeply empathize with your struggle. Being transsexual myself, sensing acceptance by my Lord but facing rejection by many of his followers. – Trish
November 6, 2014 at 4:50 pm
Add me to that list ladies. I still attend church every Sunday. I am now on HRT and I am scared that as changes start occurring and once I begin presenting full time that I will face the rejection of most people in my church.
November 6, 2014 at 5:08 pm
I didn’t face rejection right out but was told to take some time off from serving and was never asked to come back. I stayed away for about 6 months but decided if I was going to prove they were wrong in their beliefs, I had to live it out where they could see me. I had to still be Jesus no matter how my body or name or voice changed. Its much lonelier now but I’m full of joy and have peace.